cw/tw: i talk frequently about my mental illnesses (mainly anxiety/depression and PTSD) on this page as it serves as something akin to a public diary. some of these entries contain mentions of grooming/abuse as well as other distressing topics. if you are easily disturbed, please refrain from reading these entries.

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02/29/2024: coming soon to Nekoweb

just as it sounds like. i have been working on a website for my murder mystery series WIP, The Tagstead Mysteries. it will be hosted on Nekoweb as i would like as much space as possible to host my art and writing on my now six-year long project. six years. a little over half a decade. that's insane now that i think about it. i was an innocent sixteen-year-old kid when i started it. now, i am twenty-two and have been through so much taking my project along with me. nonetheless, i think y'all will enjoy what i have in store soon.

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01/18/2024: just about fucking had it with kink

i imagine whoever may come across my website is familiar with the goings on of the art and animation community but if it isn't the case, i will give the lowdown. basically, the long-awaited show by Vivziepop, Hazbin Hotel, is finally streaming on Amazon Prime. as someone who got curious watching the pilot way back in 2019, normally i would have been looking forward to it (and the trailer looked good as well). however that changed really quickly when i found out the behind-the-scenes of a leaked scene where the character Angel Dust gets SA'd. at first, the situation seemed to be mishandling sensitivity in merchandise (an enamel pin of Angel Dust collared to his abuser). it gets worse.

the artist responsible for storyboarding that scene is a "noncon" fetishist. and all the while, Vivziepop treated this matter like how a teenage fujoshi writes fanfiction when she is old enough to handle this sensitively and had the chance to hire a survivor of SA for storyboarding.

i am so fucking tired of these degenerates worming into the things we all love. i should know because i was groomed by such a person. i don't care if you claim it's "consensual," you are still romanticizing abuse (and pedophilia and zoophilia when ageplay and petplay is involved). basically, if you defend Vivziepop and/or defend "cnc" or "ageplay" or "petplay" as well as fetishizing mlm ppl (especially so when Angel Dust is a walking homophobic stereotype) get lost. i don't want you here and everyone else thinks you're all freaks.

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01/07/2024: school starting again :c

yeah :c cool thing is that i don't have any classes tomorrow les gooooo

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12/31/2023-01/01/2024

another year has come and gone. and unlike my other attempted blog on an older version of this website, i will actually maintain this new blog (and the website as a whole) rather than falling into old habits of leaving this place for months at a time. i have modded this website into something i feel is actually satisfactory in both aesthetics and comfort. as of right now, i have yet to fully put in my personal touch (intro, collections, blinkies, stamps, etc) but i feel i can make this post anyways :3 everything else will come in due time

2023 has been a year of great personal work for me psychologically. as some may know, i suffer from a great deal of trauma from online grooming as a teenager. and as such, 2023 has been a year in which i did my damnedest to open up about my experiences. the more i talk about it, the more i feel like my abuser will finally face justice for what she did. of course, that applies to any victim of online grooming. so please share your story with your loved ones. they will understand and be there with you every step of the way on your healing journey. i can only hope that 2024 will be a year of spiritual healing for me, for i feel as though my spirit is tainted and corrupted as a result of the abuse i endured

onto happier notes, i am debating whether to store some of my oc lore here on Neocities or solely on Toyhouse. as 2024 will be the year i actually work on my novel series rather than simple outlines and notes, i can see the validity of both possibilities. i suppose only time and my willingness to code extensively can determine this.

in the meantime, i am getting sleepy very quickly at what is now 12:53 am, so i will wish you all a good night and a Happy New Year 🎊🍾🥂